Written by Chelsea Marie Hicks
My body is a reliquary, its bones my rigid relics
about which lay memories, scattered in particles
like the ashes of dust and salt, thrown over shoulders.
Written by Chelsea Marie Hicks
My body is a reliquary, its bones my rigid relics
about which lay memories, scattered in particles
like the ashes of dust and salt, thrown over shoulders.
Tagged as dust and salt, memories, poetry, reliquary, the body, what is human, what we are, writing
Written by Chelsea Marie Hicks
At first she only tasted the faint smell of salt seasoning the air, unaccompanied by any sight or sound. Her view was enveloped in a darkness so consuming she was momentarily convinced that salt had forever been painted black–that her memory of its whiteness was flawed, likely misinformed by a strange dream, a wrong deja vu. She could feel the rough grains of salt between her toes and would only realize what rubbed her skin when the light bent open her eyes. There brown, grey sand slipped through her and the sensory flood swelled as sea foam left its fading bubbles clinging above her ankle; limbs instantly washed over by the wet chill of an unforgiving sea, its crashing whistle ringing in her ears; the bath of warm sunlight dripping from her taut white bodice.
This was just like a day at the beach except that it wasn’t. Wherever Claire had just awoken was nowhere within the realm of the familiar despite the seething sensation that she’d done this all before.
Filed under Fact and Fiction, Stories
Tagged as beach, deja vu, dreams, fiction, short fiction, writing
Written by Chelsea Marie Hicks
Wash awake the sharp chill of the night and in the sun’s tempting light, take shelter from the horrors marinating in your mind. Like the tide running towards deeper waters, heed the warning in the silence you hear–the air is shuddering with a message that only the rattle of stop signs and sway of telephone lines can convey. This is not the world you wake up in, dreams amnesiaed, taking shape in whispers.
Written by Chelsea Marie Hicks
Salt lines lips hardly tasted, the sodium resting for a suitor seeking flavors savory and rarely sweet.
1. Americana by Don DeLillo
2. Nothing to Envy by Barbara Demick
3. Mysterious Skin by Scott Heim
4. Lunar Park by Bret Easton Ellis
5. You Shall Know Our Velocity! by Dave Eggers
6. The Subterraneans by Jack Kerouac
7. Hot Water Music by Charles Bukowski
8. Guns, Germs and Steel by Jared Diamond
9. The Yiddish Policemen’s Union by Michael Chabon
10. The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay by Michael Chabon
11. Interpreter of Maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri
12. Laughter in the Dark by Vladimir Nobokov
13. When You Are Engulfed in Flames by David Sedaris
14. The Thousand Autumns of Jacob De Zoet by David Mitchell
15. Dance Dance Dance by Haruki Murakami
16. Breakfast At Tiffany’s by Truman Capote
17. 1984 by George Orwell
18. The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
19. The Girl Who Played With Fire by Stieg Larsson
20. Collapse by Jarrod Diamond
21. Between Parentheses by Roberto Bolaño
22. Super Sad True Love Story by Gary Shteyngart
23. Miss Lonelyhearts/The Year of the Loccust by Nathaneal West
24. The Fortress of Solitude by Jonathan Lethem
25. A Visit From the Goon Squad by Jennifer Egan
26. The Emperor of All Maladies by Siddhartha Mukherjee
27. The Pale King by David Foster Wallace
28. Amusing Ourselves to Death by Neil Postman
29. 1Q84 by Haruki Murakami
30. Point Omega by Don DeLillo
31. Parallel Worlds by Michio Kaku
Filed under Stories, Fact and Fiction
Tagged as lists, don delillo, reading, book list, books read in 2011, michael chabon, haruki murakami, david foster wallace
Written by Chelsea Marie Hicks
Willows whimper in the wailing winds’ cries, wet with rain soaked deep into the marrow, roots reaching their frail limbs outward meet the frame of your concrete cathedral. Songs of worship reverberate their praise in all uncertain bones, this salvations symphony sounds sweeter when properly seasoned. Licking wounds like hounds clean their chops, some things that sound like healing often feel as though they’re not. The body and the blood dance a tango on your tongue and though you washed it down with holy water, what you’ve swallowed was not scripture. On knees kneeling, stroke the cross ’til you shudder with the spirit. Only in the oaks are the gods tales ciphered into rings and mangled bark.
Tagged as alliteration, gospel found in forests, nature, poetry
In the midst of list season, I deliver to you the first of far too many to come. Here is a tale told through images of places I traveled in 2011.
HANOI, VIETNAM : : FEB. 2011
The Ho Chi Minh Memorial in Hanoi
A young boy properly suited for Tet festivities
HA LONG BAY, VIETNAM : : FEB. 2011
Local dwellings of the Bay
Giant vertical rock formations
HO CHI MINH CITY, VIETNAM : : FEB. 2011
Ho Chi Minh statue in front of the Peoples Committee Hall
MEKONG DELTA, VIETNAM : : FEB. 2011
Snake liquor for sale and a local curious fish
Coconut candy makers selling their product in the Delta
KUALA LUMPUR, MALAYSIA : : FEB. 2011
A fellow giant, me, greetings the Petronas Towers
One of oh so many delicious plates served up in Malaysia
PENANG, MALAYSIA : : FEB. 2011
A monk giving alms at a Chinese temple for the Lunar New Year celebration
A city of temples for ranging beliefs
SEOUL, SOUTH KOREA : : 2011
Hongdae’s infamous makguelli man
Awaiting the sunrise near the sea
Fried goodness for sale near Seoul Station
BUSAN, SOUTH KOREA : : JUNE 2011
Seafood stew successfully devoured
Bidding farewell to the sun over Gwanggali
PORTLAND, OREGON : : JULY 2011
CHICAGO, ILLINOIS : : JULY 2011
Skyscrapers and fields of grass
DES MOINES, IOWA : : JULY 2011
Iowa feels like home and these are some of the state’s finest folks and dear friends of mine.
The lovely lady Anna and I, faces glowing in humidity
SEATTLE, WASHINGTON : : AUG. 2011
Exterior of the Seattle Art Museum
SAN FRANCISCO, CALIFORNIA : : AUG. 2011
View of San Fran from Lombard Street
Annie Danger and I at the base of the windiest street in the world
MINNEAPOLIS, MINNESOTA : : AUG. 2011
Kaili and I playing with a sculpture park illusion
Minne’s Spoon and Cherry sculpture
CANNON BEACH, OREGON : : AUG. 2011
My puppy dog, Sadie Hawkins, hiding out in the tall sea grass
NEW ORLEANS, LOUISIANA : : SEPT. 2011
Intricate bead-work of a chief suit
NOLA pride: Abita beer and the Saints logo in the distance
Cafe Du Monde, possible location of heaven on Earth
DMZ/JSA/NORTH KOREA : : OCT. 2011
South Korean guards standing in a kill stance in the Joint Security Area between North and South Korea
The flagpole carrying the weight of the heaviest flag in the world in North Korea
HONG KONG : : DEC. 2011 (COMING SOON)
For more photographs of my travels and Korean life, visit my Flickr page: http://www.flickr.com/photos/seafaringwoman/
Filed under Sights, North America, Asia
Tagged as Portland, lists, iowa, san francisco, south korea, seoul, north america, traveling, vietnam, malaysia, photographs, busan, des moines, chicago, minneapolis, sights seen, seattle, north korea, jsa, dmz, new orleans, photo entry
All of those that know me are aware that I often disappear (at lengths of time varying greatly), but always at some point I manage to return. For five months I abandoned these Untamed Waters of the interwebs to explore America, reunite with family and friends and fling myself into another year in Seoul-land. My time in the States was packed with moments surprising, wonderful and strange as well as a few disappointing and predictable, but perhaps what struck me and has stuck with me the most about my stint in my motherland was the reaffirmation that my home is a transient one, that where I seem to belong is a location with coordinates ever-changing. I was and I am a foreigner even in my own land.
My Living in Americaaaa Tour, as I refer to it, took me across the country to seven different states to wander about cities familiar and unknown , with dear friends and strangers alike. It was a whirlwind of an adventure that left an imprint reminding me how great portion of my being is dedicated to travel and demands such movement; it was also a blatant punch to my emotions, reminding me how hard it is to bid see you later to places and people occupying sections of my heart.
I’m back in Seoul now, experiencing this land that I’ve come to know and adore still as a foreigner but wearing different lenses. Writing remains a task I don’t pay nearly enough attention to, but eventually the words force their way out. Rather than continue rambling, I’ll leave you with a hello, I’m back. More tales to come.
Filed under Stories, Traveling Tales, Uncategorized
Though I seem to be constantly in a state of self-reflection, I have yet to put into words what this past year has been, what I’ve experienced, how it has changed me, what it’s meant to me, the people I’ve met and the sights that I’ve seen, and perhaps I won’t really be able to fully articulate such reflections until some unknown point in the future. The strange, exciting, sort of sad (all right, quite sad) and a bit frightening thing is that I’m leaving Korea in ten days and I have no idea what I’m doing.
These last few months I’ve spent flip-flopping between staying and going, and there’s this never-ending dialogue occuring between my inner beings arguing over the legitimate reasons to make an attempt at creating a life and career for myself in America and the adventurer begging me not to go anywhere too familiar, to continue the journey to foreign territories with languages indecipherable and cultures unknown. I have a very loose plan for my not-so-distant future and I’m thrilled by the numerous prospects and oddly as ease with the uncertainty of what’s to come; it’s entirely possible that in a few months I’ll be en-route to Seoul for round two, but the possibilities also include various other Asian cities, locations in America and maybe even a return to eastern Europe. As I’ve mentioned, I have no idea what I’m doing, but I’m confident, a bit strangely so, that everything will work itself out as it should.
Figuring out the future is not, however, the point of this post. Tonight likely isn’t the night to get down deep into it, but I’m seriously so astonished to realize that I’ve spent a whole year living in Korea and when I think back to my first days here and the person I was then, it feels so bizarre because I recognize how much I’ve grown. When I moved to Seoul I was in dire need and want for an unfamiliar land and despite my rapture for the adventure I was embarking on, I came to this country torn apart with a broken heart desperate to mend. Whatever love I had to give, I gave it to this city and now I find myself preparing to pack my bags to leave my love behind. Seoul is a magical place that I’ve become so attached to and even with ten days to go, I know it’s going to tear a bit of me apart to fly away. My life here is a wonderful and exciting one that I very well may kick myself for leaving behind, but I suppose the thing that’s helping me to maintain my composure is that little grain of an imagined future that has me coming back here–an imagination that very well might become a reality.
I don’t have it in me this evening to review my year and share the tales that have yet to find themselves surviving infinitely in the interwebs, but I couldn’t keep quiet the excitement and anxiety wriggling all about me. In ten days I’ll be back in America and for all I know I may fall back in love with my motherland, but regardless of where I decide to call home for the next however long, I must note that I’ll be leaving a piece of myself behind in Seoul-land that someday I must retrieve. Ten days from now is not goodbye for me and this place, it’s simply a see you later.
Filed under Fact and Fiction, Stories, Traveling Tales
Tagged as foreigner, korea, life abroad, returning to america, seoul, traveling
Last, last weekend was Korea’s Memorial Day weekend and to celebrate my coworkers Will and David, our friend Amila and myself decided to venture south to the beaches of Busan to soak up the sunshine, dine on fresh seafood and splish-splash in the salty waters of the East Sea.
SATURDAY
The journey began late on Saturday night as we took a 3-hour train ride from Seoul to Busan and since there were no seats left on the train we made ourselves comfortable in one of the standing cars. The trip itself went by fairly fast, no doubt with help from the service cart selling beer at the same cheap price as convenience stores (~2,000 won or $1.50). When we finally arrived in Busan, our first mission was to fill up our bellies and after a little bit of roaming around and swiftly moving out of the sketchy Russian quarter, we settled on a small Korean restaurant for some pretty standard grub; I had a bowl of some scrumptious bibimbap that included some raw fish. After having drinks in a different section of the city that kind of reminded us of Hongdae, we decided to make the trek to a nearby jjimjilbong (Korean spa/baths) to wash and sauna off the day and catch some zzz’s.This jjimjilbong was quite nice with multiple hot baths, a large pool and two saunas, and the common room for sleeping was rather large though a little on the discomforting side due to the extra hot temperature.
SUNDAY
Waking up around 11 AM feeling fairly well-rested, we hit the sauna, showered and grabbed a quick bite to eat before catching the subway to Gwangalli Beach.
Group shot at Gwangalli Beach (left to right: me, Will, Amila and David)
This beach was absolutely gorgeous and not too overcrowded, which was rather nice. We basically spent the entire day laying on the beach sipping makguelli, taking dips in the ocean to cool-off and grabbing food, coffee and water just across the street whenever the need arose.
Amila gazing out at the sea and Gwangan Bridge
After beach lounging for several hours, we had all worked up a mighty hunger, but David and I were specifically craving some spicy cold noodles which isn’t exactly everybody’s cup of tea, so we left Will and Amila on the beach to hold our spots and got ourselves some giant bowls of noodles!
All too quickly our day at the beach was turning into night and for the evening hours we made our way to Haeundae Beach, which though I haven’t ever been to Cancun, I feel confident in making the comparison deeming Haeundae essentially to be Korea’s Cancun. Though Haeundae isn’t the kind of beach I prefer, it made for an eventful and amusing night out, and the surrounding area/section of the city was actually a lot of fun for grabbing dinner, drinks and whatever other entertainment seemed necessary, like noraebonging!!
For a few hours we sat on the beach near the water playing drinking games and chatting, listening to terrible bands performing on the giant stage that we couldn’t manage to get far away enough from to allow the sea to completely drown out the sound. One game we played was a number/counting game that sounded too easy at first, but surely enough after a few rounds we were all becoming sufficiently goofy off of our beach beverages of choice, especially Amila who had trouble remembering some of her times tables! With the beach growing chilly and our stomachs rumbling, we went inland to find a spot for dinner that we could all agree on, which took far longer than it should, but eventually we settled for a giant pot of seafood stew and it was thoroughly satisfying to say the least.
Remnants of a seafood devouring session
Will and I had been really aching for some singing time so our next destination was a noraebong (singing room). The first place we went to basically refused us, a sometimes occurrence for foreigners just about anywhere, but the woman was very kind and directed us to a different noraebong nearby. Though we were all in attendance, Will and I were total mic hogs, but Amila and David didn’t seem to mind too much! I wish I could remember the entire tracklist for the night, but of what I can recall I know Will and I did a spectacular job with Lauryn Hill’s “Doo Wop (That Thing)” and Outkast’s “Ms. Jackson,” and Queen, Prince, Otis Redding, The Rolling Stones and Rick Astley (yes, we rick-rolled ourselves) all happened at some point.
Will, Amila and David at the noraebong…I think the boys were doing “Kung-Fu Fighting”
This might have to be one of my profile pictures for life
The rest of the evening went as most Korean nights do, unpredictably predictable. We walked around exploring the city at night, laughing at the strange sights and generally causing mischief whenever we foreigners could. David and I “played” a little volleyball on the beach and Will and I dared drunk David to run to the top of a sand mountain, which he did. All was magically well until we made it to incredibly beautiful looking, both on the interior and exterior, jjimjilbong we planned to sleep in only to discover that it was full. I didn’t think this was possible and certainly doubted the front-desk women until she allowed me to take a peek at the sleeping area to see if we wanted to stay there still and it literally was the most packed sleeping quarters I’d ever seen in my life. Fortunately jjimjilbongs are a plenty and after a short cab ride we found a place to rest our weary limbs.
MONDAY
For me, Monday began all too abruptly as an adjumma (someday I will go into all that this single word encompasses and signifies, which is a surprising amount, but for now just know that this is the word used to describe a particular and common type of Korean woman, but literally translates to married woman) woke me by shaking and hitting me with a square brick pillow and in a whispered shout said something in Korean that my mind translated to “get up and move now!” This all happened at 9:30 AM, which maybe in my U.S. days would have been a normal waking hour for me, but in Korea I’m lucky if I’m out of bed before 11: 00 AM. Exhausted and off-kilter from waking in the middle of my sleep cycle, I presume, I headed for the sauna in hopes of sweating myself to a state somewhere closer to awake than I was; it half-worked, but I think the cold pool after is what really did the trick. Or maybe just being surrounded by a ton of naked Korean women starring at me is what did it.
Amila and I were ready to go before the boys had even gotten themselves off the floor (somehow they avoided being rudely awakened by some Korean woman), but we managed to all meet-up for some breakfast before returning to Gwangalli Beach to spend yet another day on its glorious sand. Unlike our lazy Sunday, much of Monday was spent in the ocean playing with the volleyball David brought along. It was super fun running around and hitting the volleyball in the salty water and just being in the ocean like that reminded me of how I used to spend my weekends on the Oregon Coast surfing when I was younger. I’m sure I’d be awful at it now as I was never even that good, but I’m actually looking forward to busting out my surfboard when I get back to America and seeing what I can do.
The day was winding down fast and all too soon it was approaching the hour for Amila to catch a train back to Seoul. For our final supper together we grabbed some Mexican food and mojitos at a restaurant with a patio right next to the beach and it was an excellent meal to bid farewell to one of our posse members.
Last supper all together in Busan
From that point, the weekend was already perfect and extremely memorable, definitely among my favorite weekends spent in Korea. I couldn’t really imagine at the time what would’ve made the trip significantly better, but sure enough we came up with something. While eating dinner, the next mission was determined to be to get onto the roof of a building, specifically with our eyes on the linked twin towers that were so intriguing and architecturally attractive in the skyline.
Before embarking on our rooftop adventure though, we checked out a beach carnival that was next to the buildings. It was a quaint operation when it comes to carnivals, but it certainly created some great photo opportunities. I especially loved the bright colors, neon lights and terribly reproduced popular images.
The sun was destined to set soon and thus we made our attempt to get to the roof of a building near the sea. The first tower we went up to the fifteenth floor and had no luck–every door was locked despite the deserted appearance of the building. With our fingers crossed, we took the elevator to the top floor of the second tower and as the boys turned to head for the stairwell I felt compelled to at least try the doors to the empty office next to the elevator and to my complete shock the doors were unlocked, as were the doors to the balcony overlooking Gwangalli Beach. We were all so ecstatic and simply couldn’t believe that we had discovered a high up in the sky to call ours for a little while. There are few things in life that I call perfect, but that occurrence and our luck in that moment and watching the sunset over the sea and edge of the hills in the distance of the cityscape really was perfect. Spending whatever time we did up there really was the ideal way to end our trip to Busan.
The view from our claimed balcony at Gwangalli Beach
Busan in the evening hours from up above
Well, that concludes the tale of my 48 hours in Busan. As I’ve already said, the trip was amazing and it was so wonderful to see another part of Korea. It’s finally setting in that I’m leaving soon and may or may not be back. It’s going to be difficult to bid this country farewell, it really is.
26 days and counting….
For more photos and higher quality images from my time in Busan as well as my travels throughout Asia, please visit my Flickr.
Filed under Asia, Sights, Stories, Traveling Tales
Tagged as beaches, busan, chelsea marie hicks, east sea, korea, photography, seafood, south korea, teaching in korea, travel blogging, traveling